Thursday Thoughts: I’ve Been A Bit Rubbish

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Hello there Writes Readers,

You may have noticed that I have been a bit silent on the blog recently, I promise that this was not intentional and I’m going to have to sort of explain my life a bit to get across what’s been going on.

I said from the start that I didn’t want this blog to be about my life and how much toast I have eaten, but my life has changed a lot this year and this goes to explain why I’ve been AWOL this month. I’ve not been well at all this year, spending the first 8 months of it in and out of hospital for tests. Then in the summer I lost my job. Which in some ways was a blessing as it forced me to evaluate my life and priorities. My number one priority for the remainder of 2013 was to look after myself. I started writing They’re Here and I created this blog, both of which have really helped in balancing my life. Since shortly before losing my job I started a course of medication, which helped but in recent months the side effects started to really get to me. Last month my doctor and I decided to see how I would be without medication for a month. Short version is that I’ve felt much better for it, I have a lot more energy and as such have been spending more time out of the house (I also started  a new job) and less time at the computer. So, while I’m being a terrible blogist for not keeping up with my writing and posts, what I’m making up for in feeling happy is very important to me.

My doctor is pleased with how I’m getting on, and while I feel the best I have felt all year, I’m still far from feeling perfectly well. There is a fog of illness that I feel on the cusp of all the time and I am very conscious that I need to take care of myself.

I’m not stopping the blog, and I hope you will be happy to continue to read what I’m writing. The December short story vote is up (https://ardavidsonwrites.wordpress.com/2013/12/19/short-story-voting-december/), so please go and vote for one of those very Newt-centric stories.  The voting will be up until Boxing Day and I aim to have the November and December stories up by the end of the year.

So that’s me. Happy but absent. I think there’ll be a post on Monday and then that might be it for 2013 until I post the short stories.

I hope that you have a wonderful Christmas and a happy New Year.

– Andrew

Short Story 1: Goat’s Story

Hello,

Here is the first short story written based off of a suggestion submitted to this blog.
The next submission date for story suggestions is Friday 1st November.

I hope you enjoy this story.

Goat’s Story
By Andrew Davidson
Based on the suggestion by “J”

On the edge of town, in a dark wood, in a simple house made of wood, lives Mr. Goat. To me, you, and any of our friends, Mr. Goat would seem like any normal goat, with silver fur, a black beard, and small surefooted hooves. During the long hot days he would work in the fields, bleating a good life for himself. But Mr. Goat was sad.

At night Mr. Goat sat in his windowless study and wrote fantastical stories. He imagined worlds so detailed in their description, so beautiful in their words that his heart would ache that he couldn’t visit them. But that wasn’t why Mr. Goat was sad. He was sad because he ate every page of his stories the moment he was finished writing them. At the end of the night he would have nothing to show for his hard work. This was why Mr. Goat was sad.

Every Saturday Mr. Goat would usually walk the short distance from his house, past the Library Tree, beyond the Swan Lake, and around the Shrew Police Station to the stationery shop owned by Nanny Goat, where he would buy some blank paper to write his stories. On this particular Saturday he hadn’t come and Nanny Goat was worried.

Mr. Goat sat in his front room and sulked. He wasn’t very happy at all. He had decided that he would never write another story ever again. “Better to never create than always destroy.” He said to himself.

There was a knock at his door.

Mr. Goat was not accustomed to having visitors and wondered, as he trotted towards his square front door, “Who could be disturbing my quality misery time?” He opened the door with a huff and found Nanny Goat standing outside, an umbrella over her head, although it wasn’t raining.

“May I come in?” She asked.

Mr. Goat stepped aside to let her enter his house.

“You have a very nice house.” Said Nanny Goat taking in the uneven timberwork, the wilting flower in a vase, and the worn red rug under her hooves.

Mr. Goat was trying very hard to be miserable and found her compliments very unhelpful in that regard. He had a mind to tell her as such, which was lucky because she turned to look him in his yellow eyes and asked, “Where were you today? I expected you to come and buy some paper for your stories, but you did not come. I was worried.”

“I have given up writing!” He proclaimed, meaning that to be the end of the discussion. “And how did you know where I live?”

“I asked a Stoat, who told me to speak to the Squirrels, they told me to ask the Badgers, but they have all gone into hiding, I couldn’t ask the Shrews because you have to be missing for twenty-four hours, I found a Fallow Deer who told me to ask a Chaffinch, but they were just rude. I don’t like the Chaffinches. But I met a Mole who said he knew you from the Woodland Association and here I am.”

Mr. Goat thought it was a very tall tale, though he did agree about the Chaffinches.

“Well, now you have found me and I am quite alright. Please leave, I was enjoying some quality misery and would like to get back to it.”

“But why, Mr. Goat, have you stopped writing?”

“Because I always end up eating my stories, so I think I would rather not bother.”

“I am very sorry to hear that,” said Nanny Goat, “But would you please do me the honour of telling me one of your stories before you finish forever. I would very much like to hear one of them.”

Mr. Goat had never told any of his stories before and thought that maybe if they couldn’t last forever in the pages of a book, that maybe it could last as long as it took him to tell Nanny Goat. Yes, he thought, Just this one story and then I will finish forever.

He told her a most fantastic story full of wonder and heroics, of good guys winning and defeating the bad guys, and of love. Nanny Goat sat quietly on the rug and listened intently to his story. She never once reacted to an exciting moment, never blinking as the hero almost died, and she didn’t sigh with relief when the hero won the heart of the girl. When the story was finished she stood up, said thank you, and left the house.

Mr. Goat felt worse than ever and went to sleep in a very bad mood indeed.

A tapping at his door woke Mr. Goat the next morning. Tap-tap-tap. Mr. Goat heaved himself up on his front legs, then on his back legs, and trotted grumpily to his door. “Two guests in two days.” He grumbled to himself. “Quite unacceptable.”

On his doorstep stood Mr. Goose, his white feathers and orange beak immaculately turned out as befitting someone of his position.

“Mr. Goose, sir. To what do I owe this fine pleasure?”

“Mr. Goat,” Replied Mr. Goose, “The pleasure is mine if you would care to join me for a walk.”

Well here was a fine thing if ever there was one. The Geese were well known for their self-important ways and were more likely to honk at you than talk to you. Mr. Goat agreed without question, grabbing his hat from behind the door and following Mr. Goose.

Soon they were past Nanny Goat’s stationery shop, that Mr. Goat noticed was closed, he was not accustomed to seeing it in that state. They waddled and trotted respectively toward the Town Hall that the rabbits had burrowed under the largest oak tree in the wood. As they entered the Hall the gathered animals hushed themselves and stared at Mr. Goat as he followed Mr. Goose to the front of the Hall. All the animals were there, the Ducks, the Foxes, and the Moles were all facing the wrong direction; the Frogs had come too, as had the Owls and the Hedgehogs. Above him were Nightingales, Sparrows, Woodpeckers and Willow Tits. Mr. Goat was pleased not to see any Chaffinches.

Standing behind a lectern made of mud was Nanny Goat. On the lectern Mr. Goat could just see a collection of paper bound together with straw. No, he thought, It can’t be.

“Mr. Goat,” said Nanny, “With the help of the mice we stayed up all night and wrote the story you told me, every word. I would like to read it to these animals, so that they can all share in your wonderful tale.”

Mr. Goat’s heart beat faster and his chin quivered. Throughout the story he turned his head to look at the excited faces of the other animals, his friends. They cried at the sad bits, they laughed at the funny bits, Mr. Owl put a protective wing around his wife when it seemed that there was no escape for the hero, a Nightingale sang with happiness when victory finally came, and the animals all applauded by stamping the ground at the Happily Ever After.

Mr. Goat had never felt happier. Here was his story being read to a group of animals that had loved every moment of it. He had hardly dared dream that such a thing could happen to him, let alone the demands he received afterwards to write another.

It was with a heavy heart that he spoke to the gathering of animals to say, “I am sorry my friends but I cannot write you another story, for I am cursed to destroy anything that I try to create.”

The animals in the hall all groaned in unison.

Nanny Goat stepped up beside Mr. Goat and nuzzled the side of his face with hers. “But you are forgetting Mr. Goat, that you have me, and the mice. We will help you write your stories. You tell us what to write and we will write them, together.”

Mr. Goat thought for a moment. He had been enjoying his misery, or so he thought, but there was a spark in his heart as he had listened to Nanny Goat read his story. Maybe he didn’t have to write alone, maybe there was something greater out there to experience and enjoy if only he would let himself enjoy it. He just had to believe in himself.

“Together.” He said.

And they lived happily ever after.

NOTES

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Monday Musings: Inspiration

Hello,

Here’s a delightfully intangible thing: Inspiration.

What is it? Where does it come from? How can we harness it? How can we generate it?

I had planned to write a very sweeping statement about what my inspiration is, and I was thinking through my previous writing to confirm the statement. However, as I thought back I realised that this wasn’t the case at all. I feel a little like I’ve been lying to people. I had to think more, where DID my inspiration come from? I had planned to say that ideas come to me in a very visual way, often a single striking image that over time becomes a story. Even though this isn’t true in every case, it is where I will start.

It is common that I will get an image of something and work my way backward from there. One such image was of a yellow and red sunset sky, silhouetted against which was a flock of birds that transformed into a formation of military aircraft across the image. For the longest time I didn’t know what that story was, but I was interested in the imagery of it. In time it became a story about a lone survivor of a battle, wounded and going delirious who befriends a young French girl who is playing the in woods. They were not able to communicate with each other but after all the fighting the soldier has witness she was a vision of an innocent future yet possible.

Sometimes I get a particular phrase stuck in my head. My novel stemmed from the phrase “They’re here” and worked forward from there originally as a very straight horror, but it changed over time to be less about who they were and more about how it all effected the central character, Evin. After a considerable period of rumination and false starts I realised that it was a story about Evin asking herself the question we all face at some point in our life: “Who am I?”

Other times ideas grow out of a sense of wanting to look at something from a different angle. I have spoken often (outside this blog) about my apathy toward the Zombie genre. I can count on one hand the works about Zombies that actually interest me, and they tend to be the ones that actually have very little to do with Zombies (TellTale Games video game of The Walking Dead was not only not about Zombies, it was also one of the best pieces of written entertainment in 2012). As I sat listlessly watching another retread of Zombie tropes I wondered how a Zombie would feel about the representation of Zombies in the media. I thought of him being offended by it. This idea grew to be a short film I made a couple of years ago called Dates of the Undead:

I’m the first to admit that translating those kernels of inspiration into salty idea-popcorn goodness is not something I’m very quick at. Those ideas tend to stick in my head and ruminate for a long time before I feel ready to put them on paper. I have got better and have picked up some good writing exercises over the years that have helped. There’s a great one for laying out structure/story/themes/characters that I used recently to start the book and last week for the short story. I thought it might be interesting to share the process of writing the short story, so after it has been published tomorrow I will talk about the process of taking the idea from suggestion to story and I will post this on Thursday.

I think my two favourite writing exercises are to write a monologue for a character stating who they are and what it is they want, and how they are going to achieve it. This will work for all your characters, you will find that with each character you will instinctively give them voices, and their desires and how they intend to achieve them will reveal a lot about who they are. It also means, at least to me, that when I start writing that I already know them, yes they will still surprise in the writing process, but the starting off point is less daunting.

A similar piece to this is to write a dialogue between two characters, if they are the protagonist and the antagonist it will help. Think of yourself as a counsellor for the characters. Let the protagonist state what they want and the antagonist state how they can’t have it. Again, it will be revealing and help find who the characters are. Give them weaknesses that will hinder their ability to get what they want. Not necessarily physical weaknesses, it could be impatience or a short temper.

Finally, where can you find inspiration? I did a writing course a few years ago and was told to choose a story from a newspaper, and write a scene based upon it. I’d found a small story about a couple on holiday who had been tied up and robbed. It was a horrible story and I don’t know why I picked it. Every part of the article made me sick and angry, the couple were threatened with assault and at times separated from each other. I wrote two pages of just utter rubbish, it was full of cliché and didn’t go anywhere or mean anything. It was a struggle to write and I only finished it the night before the next class. Out of those two pages, of all those words, the only thing that sparked any interest in me was five words: “Why do you love her?”

I became desperately intrigued by this. Why would someone take people hostage and demand an explanation of love? What would the answer be? If the people were physically separated from each other would their answers be the same? What if they weren’t the same? What if they didn’t know that? The story became about lies and truth. Lies we tell ourselves, truths we hide, accepting or rejection those ideals. It was a cat and mouse of what do people say and what do they mean.

Out of that article of misery, of two pages of horrible writing, came five words that inspired something much bigger and better.

I guess the point is that inspiration comes from anywhere, the trick is to be able to recognise it and harness it. To take whatever it is and work at it, use any tool available to you to create something from it. Sometimes that it won’t work, sometimes it’s not meant to work. But sometimes something better will come from that failure.

– Andrew